15 April 2008

I officially fit in my pre-pregnancy size 10 jeans. Before I had Sammi I wore some stretchy size 8s and solid size 10s. When I was having The Bloat, I wore size 12s. After I had Sammi, I fit in stretchy size 12s and solid size 14s. This means that I've dropped TWO WHOLE SIZES along with my weight.

I don't think my goal of 145-155 is unreasonable. For my height, I am supposed to be around 130 pounds. I have not weighed that little since high school. When I was solid muscle I weighed 145. That's my goal. I'm within 20 pounds of that goal, but I'm noticing that while I'm not dropping weight (very much) right now, I'm dropping sizes. This must mean that I'm building up muscle (finally)!

I can now do my 75 abdominal exercises (25 sit-ups, 25 declined oblique turney things, 25 declined crunches) without stopping. That doesn't seem like such a big deal considering I used to do nearly that many full situps on my PT test, but a year ago I couldn't even do 25 situps without stopping. I'm going to keep working on this, as my stomach is still a jiggly mass of jello.

I'm happy to report, though, that I am now able to work outside and play with the kids without getting too tired. I could now play a game of football with Nate, or run around the yard with Sammi. That was part of my goal, and I'm happy to have achieved it. Of course, I can always work on and refine that so that I'm even more fit (as I will do).

All in all though, I must say that I'm extremely happy with where I'm at right now. I finally accepted myself for who I was, and my body for what it was, and thought to myself, "You know, if I never change from this shape, it won't matter. I'll still be loved by Aaron, by my kids, and most importantly by myself." And that's when the weight started shedding. I'm happy where I am, and I will be happy if/when I hit 145-155.

Above all, besides health reasons, it really doesn't matter though. I am loved for who I am and not for what I look like.

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